I will have spent 4 years in college after this week is over, and I am thankful it is not over.
As much as I wish I were graduating on Monday with all of my classmates, I am not ready.
Sure, I have learned a lot.
Displacement: the difference between the path of the initial and final position covered by a moving object.
2007
2011
What is the displacement? between 2007 and 2011? A gain of 40 lbs.
I would like to call myself, what I consider healthy fat. I feel healthy, I am active and I am still fat. Or in other words, I am a work in progress.
I did not gain 40 pounds instantly, I lost and gained it.
In fact last year (2010) I was close to my weight in 2007.
College graduation for me will not be me just finally getting degree, it will be about me feeling in the best state of health possible.
Just because I am struggling with school does not make it “ok” for me to give up on myself and my physical goals.
I have been active my whole life, I know what it takes to be in shape ( it seemed easier before). I know that just because I am unhappy with my academic life, I don’t need to translate that within myself.
I have things I can be confident about.
Yesterday, I ran a two mile race. It was hot, I was huffing and puffing so much you would think I was being chased by a pack of wolves.
I was annoyed that I had to run with a dead garmin, it’s not that heavy when it is on and working…
If anything, in college I have learned that just because you work at a gym and have been healthy your whole life things won’t always stay that way.
I have changed and so has my body.
I am still in college because it leaves me something to be desired, physically and academically.
And back to the lesson of displacement, this is not going to be my final position, I stay moving!
I think you look amazing in your pictures..I don’t see a “F” girl…I see a strong woman!
There is nothing wrong with a little weight gain as long as you are HAPPY! I started off my journey last year to lose about 70 pounds. I lost 30 pounds and am holding. I will slowly burn the other 40 this year. It takes time! But I’m still so HAPPY at what I look like today.
Keep up the hard work! You are doing great (and I love the confidence you give off to the rest of us)!!
maintaining weight and staying happy is so hard when you’re in college, even when you live at home! Finding the balance is something that has taken me four years to figure out (and I still don’t quite have it down), but I don’t understand the ups and downs of weight gains and losses. We’re all here for support, good luck :)
Losing weight is the easy part, maintaining is the hard part. That’s when all the mental games begin. At least for me anyway. Just remember that health is a lifelong commitment and one day or one year doesn’t define your life as a whole.
I hear ya, Sana! Although I think you look awfully cute in that running pic. I need to start running with a baseball cap, you make it look so sporty! My hair is always looking so sweaty and matted. GRRR. I’ve had an unexpected 15 lbs come back the last couple years and I would consider it the “healthy” fat too. I exercise a lot and I mean A LOT. At least 5 days a week, for at least an hour of cardio, so you think it would be almost impossible for me to gain weight. Nope. My biggest struggle has always been keeping my eating in check. I’m a fan of all things carb-related and I have a sweet tooth. Running is def harder at the weight I am now, vs my “happy weight” so I’m trying to motivate myself with how I will feel rather than a number on a scale, but its tough. Congrats on the semester’s end, and keep up the good work!
i love that your so honest, i dont see fat, i see strength. I feel like iam just like you, trying to find that balance between school and weight-some weeks its all good and some weeks all bad, but i fgure it will always be a work in progress, and if not maybe ots a sin that your body is stronger at that weight more than anything
I just want to tell you how much I appreciate you blogging about your struggles. I feel like many bloggers only put the positive things in their life on their blogs and it sometimes makes me feel inadequate or cranky in comparison so I stopped blogging for a while when I thought my posts would be negative. I really like that you blog about all aspects of life and show that not everything is rosy all the time.
You have such a great outlook! Being healthy is what really matter, and its not always about a number on a scale.
What a great reflection…and I know that you will continue to grow, learn and change over the next four years. Thank you for sharing these words with me tonight. I’ve missed you and your lovely blog! I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow. Love from Austin.