A Moment of Clarity

I don’t often have moments of clarity. My life is usually a scrambled mess of rushing out the door and shoving down food in between work and class. But I had my moment around 7:00pm yesterday.

This was my view as I walked to where I was parked. The weather was nice and breezy and the sun was just starting to set and I was lost in my own thoughts. In my mind I solidified my post graduation plans. I rationalized and munched on  MISS VICKIE’S® Jalapeno Flavored Potato Chips, which are sooo finger licking good!

In my mind I envisioned my future, it felt right and I was at peace with it.

I realized that despite spending 5 years in school and learning so many useful things, I still have so much more to learn.

My life defining moments don’t need to take place between the ages of 18-22, and if they did I already missed them. Oops.

I stopped at an intersection to cross the street, a nice gentlemen let me by as he waited in his car. As soon as I got the the other side I realized I was heading the wrong direction. I promptly turned around and headed back the other way.

The gentlemen who was waiting for me to cross both ways must have assumed that I was confused.

But I was anything but confused, I was eating delicious chips after all!

Sometimes I feel like I have been wasting my time and my parent’s money figuring out what I want to be/do. But I am sure my future children will do the same with my hard earned money, such is life.

As of 7pm yesterday, my future is bright and clear, this is certainly a first. I have never had my heart set on any particular dream, not to say that I am not passionate about life, I just have too many passions and I don’t particularly excel at many of them. (which is ok!)

My goal for this summer is to transfer to a community college and work on degree #2. I want to combine, my interest in science with my passion for exercise in a clinical setting.

Coming back today, I had an assignment due in lab (it was actually due yesterday, but I misunderstood the directions), but the way I see it 10% off is much better than getting a 0. Anyways, I was up till 2am confusing myself on the assignment directions, so I frantically sent my lab partner an e-mail and went to bed. He responded back to me at 8am referencing me back to a particular e-mail where we had gone over the concept in confusion. I understood it perfectly well on April 10th.

Sigh, I confused myself for no reason at all!

We also had a practical exam in lab today. 6 of us went in groups, and at each station a TA or my professor watched us as we completed basic laboratory skills.

Aka things I have been doing for the past 5 years. Needless to say my heart was pounding, and I was shaking. The worst part was the we could not ask any questions. We just got a CHECK or a X as we submitted our final answer.

Did I mentioned that we were being timed?

On my 2nd to last station, I had all check marks. On this particular station we had to transfer a specific amount of liquid on to a spread plate. Of course I picked up the dirty and discarded tip from the pervious person who had been tested, totally ignoring the bag of sterile tips right next to me.

My professor snatched the tip away from me and threw it on the table, yikes.

Being sterile is only the most important part of laboratory research. Opps.

It’s no surprise that I received an X. However, that was my only X and I walked out, relatively pleased.

Don’t worry, I still have my moment of clarity even if I can’t practice sterile laboratory techniques. My future looks awesome.

No really it does.

Do you also get nervous with timed tests/ exercises?

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7 Responses to A Moment of Clarity

  1. A lot of people (I’ll include myself in this) change their minds often about what they want to do in life or “be when they grow up.” It’s great you’re feeling so much clarity and sureness right now but it’s also important to always be ready and open to new opportunities.

    • Sana says:

      For the first time in my life I feel qualified to make this choice. I have spent the five years studying science and working in the fitness industry, it only makes sense to work in the exercise science field. Also given my injury, I want to be able to work in a clinical setting to help those who are dealing with injuries.
      How are you?

  2. Floey says:

    SO happy for you. I am praying for a moment like this. So glad your parents support this as well (I assume). It’s great to have that support system.

    • Sana says:

      Oh believe me, my parents are veryyy supportive, I live with them!
      But I am also at the point in my life where it’s my turn to make choices, I think the reason why I have had so much trouble with being a bio major is because I sort of went along with what my parents wanted me to do. Not that I blame them, but I had no idea what I wanted to do in the end so their choice just seemed to be the best.

  3. SIL says:

    I hate timed anything. I hate rushing. It gives me anxiety. I’m so excited about your new degree!

    • Sana says:

      The only reason, I am excited about working in the field of exercise science is because my back is feeling better and I am excited about getting back into the fitness world!
      How was Paris???

      • SIL says:

        OH IT WAS BEAUTIFUL! We went to the Eiffel Tower, had croque monsiour, drank champagne and rose and armagnac and cognac, went to the Louvre and Moulin Rouge show. I loved it. I loved Tuscany too. We went to Florence, San Giamano, Siena, Chianti and stayed at the Villa Bianca in Gambassi Terme.