A Moment of Clarity X2

Some days when the weather is cool this is where I get to work:

Today, as I was teaching a basic fitness class outdoors at the UMBC track, I thought to myself, “Man I wish I could do this forever.”

Newsflash Sana, you CAN do this forever.

I don’t know why I am constantly struggling with myself when it comes to figuring out what to do with my life. I am already doing what I what I consider to be my dream job. I am helping other people get fit while I am working on my own personal fitness.

I feel more confident in my choice as I can see and feel my mind/body transform as I have been able to include physical exercise as a part of my daily life.

If this is not what I am supposed to be doing with my life, will someone please come and tell me?

I not sure why, but for some reason right now I feel so clear about what I should be doing with my life, when I usually feel foggy and confused. I chalk this up to the fact that when I was a little brown girl my possible future careers were doctor, doctor and doctor.

In fact several family members refer to me as Dr. Sana…….

It is hard for me to continue on with a future path that I just can’t get excited about, I have considered other careers in the healthcare industry but my heart is just not committed.

Apparently I have no interest in financial security?

I am not saying that things are all set in stone for me, but I have these reoccurring realizations that this is where I need to be focusing all my attention. And I hope they eventually amount to something. Whether it involves getting a bachelor’s degree in exercise science or becoming an exercise physiologist with a masters or PhD, I know that I will live with a happy, full and passionate heart.

Also, because I can justify wearing yoga pants for everyday of my life.

Today, was also the first time my sister claimed that she was not embarrassed to be seen with me in public.


“Sana, unless you look as cute as I do-I just can’t be seen in public with you.”

I guess she considers my usual sweaty workout clothes attire to be rather embarrassing.


I decided to wear a top a got from Francesca’s Collections along with some salmon colored pants from H&M.IMG_0638

How stinking cute are the buttons on the back?

I am a bit terrified that my entire top will come undone while I am in class, but I will set aside my fear for the sake of fashion.

Anddd all of my daily eats:

My weightloss progress has been going fairly well. I am losing 2-3 lbs a month, I feel full and energetic during the day but I am always starving at night. I think it’s because I eat dinner at 6-7pm and never eat past 8-9pm. This would workout well, except for the fact that I stay up till 1-2am and I am too hungry to sleep. Sigh





Black tea+pumpkin bread for breakfast on the way to work-did you guys know it was fall?

Homemade chicken salad sandwich with a side of Popchips for lunch with a side of fruit.

I was planning on coming home for dinner, but I had to stay out later than expected so I grabbed a Veggie Delight from Subway.

I have not been eating dessert lately, but my sister treated me to some frozen yogurt and I could not pass up that opportunity.

Salted caramel frozen yogurt is so fantastic.

So yea, I think I just need to eat some crackers before bed because I feel like I am eating enough during the day.

Maybe more protein?

Do you ever have trouble sleeping because you are too hungry?

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13 Responses to A Moment of Clarity X2

  1. Of course you need to be wearing yoga pants every day! They are stylin’, not just comfy. When your sis asks to borrow them, let her know she has to bring on a cuter look first before she gets to don your stuff! Ha ahaa Take that, Sissie!

  2. Floey says:

    I’m so happy for you that you have clarity about your future. You give me hope, haha. I remember reading your blog when you were unsure.
    Did you make the pumpkin bread??

  3. Beverly Aragon says:

    Oh life, why are you so tricky??? If your heart is not fully committed, I think it’s definitely a sign that it’s pulling you in a different direction. Sometimes our heart is the only GPS we really need!
    P.S. Your new outfit is smokin hot! :)

    • Sana says:

      Life would not be this much fun if it were not interesting. Life has no guide, we only have our hearts and our minds.
      Thanks :) I never look cute so I decided to document it for the world to see ;)

  4. If I were you I would not eat crackers at night as those carbs will stay in your tummy and store since when you sleep no energy is being expended. The recommendation is to not eat 2-3 hours before bed so if I were you I would have some vegetables later on at night. Vegetables are high in FIBER which make you feel full but are low in calories and your body loves veggies so it will take those guys and make them into vitamins and minerals for your body to nourish off of! Good luck with your journey! 2-3 lbs a month is HUGE! Love and Shine CourtStar

    • Sana says:

      Thanks for the advice! I will try and eat some veggies after my dinner to tide me over. I am doing the best that I can :)

  5. I can not thank you adequately for the posts on your web site. I know you’d put a lot of time and effort into them and hope you know how much I appreciate it. I hope I’ll do exactly the same for someone else at some point.

  6. Sonal says:

    Well done Sana I think exercise science is great if that’s what you really want to do! :) I also lovee your outfit !

  7. Haha this made me giggle slightly…oh the woes of growing up a little brown girl! I think no matter where in world…the expectations of being brown is always the stereotypical…Dr or lawyer or engineer! Which is great if that is truly where your passion and talent lies! But alas, not all us lil brown girls (or boys) fit that mould lol, I’m glad you’ve found peace and realization that you gotta follow what is going to make your heart happy! You want to wake up pumped every morning and finding a job which doesn’t even feel like ‘work’ cos you love it SO much…that’s truly a gem! Hold on tight and stick with it cos you are surely to be successful when you are doing something you adore! So go YOU!!! And damn chicita, go you on the weightloss! P.S – kindly port that friggin cute outfit into my closet ASAP thanks :P